I was searching for something I could not describe
So I stared at the sun till the tears filled my eyes
Well I thought I was empty so I paid the cost
Now that I'm found I miss being lost
Well I opened my heart and I let Jesus in
With the promise that I would be free of my sins
But I only felt guilty that he died on the cross
Now that I'm found I miss being lost
I don't want to suffer, I don't want to die
I want the clouds parted and endless blue skies
But someone up there has a different plan
And now that I'm saved I wish I was damned