If ever you had said to me before
that i would live this life that i am
living now i guess it's all so strange
to feel the way i do inside but
have so much that i could feel some
pride for in my life so why is it that
i feel like this
how do i feel? i've been here before,
i've felt this
retreat to a place, a place within me
i need this. keep it all down, bottled inside
it breaks me to torment again and
torture me like it used to
i try and try to break away from all the hate
i'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever
done me wrong. i need to justify the reasons
for the way i'm living. i guess i can't cause
i don't feel like i deserve it
so now the waves they have subsided
and my soul is bleeding i can't take away
the shame i feel, forgive me